In an abyss of sadness…

Every night i try to tell myself that it’s ok, but deep down i know its not.

it may sound strange coming from me but, I actually miss ahs. and everyone that i know from there; my classmates, ex-classmates, cca mates, teachers…

I know i sound weak when i say i feel lonely and insecure in my new school (CJC), but it’s inenvitable since only 3 people in the whole JC1 cohort were from ahs. and i don even know the other 2 guys.

It’s strange when i feel nothing at all until I step into my new school.

and making a new friend was helpful to a certain extent, but she just reminded me of my old classmate, which brings depression back again.

i keep telling myself to bear and grind with it, but just thinking about my friends and ex classmates makes things so sad. So sad….


About Kimono Party Girl

I was born and bred in Singapore for the first 20 years of my life, and then I decided that even after flying all over the world as a flight attendant, life is still too boring. So, in search of more adventure and add spice to my life, I quit my job, packed up, and left for Japan - which is, to me, the promised land. I've always been fascinated with Japan ever since I was 8, thanks to Ayumi Hamasaki, aka the Britney Spears of Japan. She's the first J-pop singer that I have been obsessed with, and my first contact with the Japanese language was through her lyrics. Yup, I first learned my Hiragana from her song 'I am'. But what really sealed the deal was my first trip to Japan in 2010. The fresh air, the beautiful cherry blossoms, the endless fast fashion trends and the awesome food was what made Japan the land of my dreams, and it had since become my goal to one day live, work and party in Japan. So after working like a horse as a flight attendant for 2 years and saving up a decent amount, I made a big leap of faith and moved to the land of the rising sun. I have studied one year of Japanese and two years of graphic design. Currently, I'm in the midst of shukatsu (就活 - job hunting). Wish me luck!
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7 Responses to In an abyss of sadness…

  1. songe says:

    take care my love, we shall go through this together~!

  2. mirajii says:

    thank you honey~

  3. slayedoll says:

    songe? song ge? 😡

    its just the beginning of the 2 years! its just like when you first go into ahs… also v lonely all that.. but you managed to settle down anyway (: i believe itll be the same this time! its the same for everyone..


  4. slayedoll says:

    opps the emoticon is not supposed to look fierce! it is ‘:0’ ahha~

  5. mirajii says:

    lol haha thank you so much~ i know that too its just that this time i had more memories in ahs than in my primary school thats why im like that… no matter what i’ll always remember and love everyone~!!

  6. Julia says:

    Hey random but so cool you’re in CJ! Hahaha. Do you know Amos Pang? He claims that everyone knows him but I don’t believe him LOL.

  7. mirajii says:

    lol yeah he’s in my IG. but if he’s not in my IG i won’t know him LOL

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