Maybe that’s what I am. My words and expressions slap people hard on the face. I don’t mince my words and neither do I euphemise them (well, only sometimes). But there are also times when nothing comes out of me or the things that I wanted to express weren’t quite the way I meant them to be.
That’s what got me thinking after exams. What do I do after exams? Freedom had been all laid out in front of me, but I didn’t dare savour it. Because I know once my busy and stressful days are over, my real life would’ve been stripped bare, and the harsh reality will dawn on me.
What will be waiting for me after exams?
There’s nothing left in me, and there is nothing for me.
This is the way life has been for me. But I really don’t want things to continue like this.
Freak, why can’t I just be normal? WHY?!!
Why can’t I be like everyone else; giggly, catching up on latest gossips, having tons to say, having people talk crap to me…
Maybe I’m just not sensitive enough to people’s feelings? I’m not responsive enough? Too self-centred?