System overload

Resulted from problems in registration for the US visa.

Which led to hopelessness in going to a place which I had so much adored.

And subsequently falling behind my peers because of operating on one less flight.

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ok that probably doesnt make much sense to a lot of people. bottom line is, I’m fed up with life.

I’m stressed up with demands from my occupation, and on top of that, my own goals in life.

I’m tired of keeping up with time, and the release and dissipation of information, thanks to technology.

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And I’m afraid of uncertainties. Afraid of growing up.

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I need to hold onto something, to know that I’m normal, I’m alright, the choice that I’ve made is right, and that everything will go right.

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On a happy note – and it’s an indication that I’m in touch with myself and my old self – I’ve learnt to let it go. Let the flight go, let the worries. I’ll just have to believe that when the time comes, I’ll be able to rise to the occasion. I’ve missed an opportunity to rise (damn), but I’m not being pessimistic. Like a certain friend had mentioned, optimism is very important not just in life, but it is ESPECIALLY important in this line of work. 

Thanks to some cool music, I’ve learnt to relax and chillax as well!!

alright fine, it’s an old song, I’m outdated, whatever.

The beat’s great, but I just hope Namie knows what she’s singing O_o

Cheers!!!


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About Kimono Party Girl

I was born and bred in Singapore for the first 20 years of my life, and then I decided that even after flying all over the world as a flight attendant, life is still too boring. So, in search of more adventure and add spice to my life, I quit my job, packed up, and left for Japan - which is, to me, the promised land. I've always been fascinated with Japan ever since I was 8, thanks to Ayumi Hamasaki, aka the Britney Spears of Japan. She's the first J-pop singer that I have been obsessed with, and my first contact with the Japanese language was through her lyrics. Yup, I first learned my Hiragana from her song 'I am'. But what really sealed the deal was my first trip to Japan in 2010. The fresh air, the beautiful cherry blossoms, the endless fast fashion trends and the awesome food was what made Japan the land of my dreams, and it had since become my goal to one day live, work and party in Japan. So after working like a horse as a flight attendant for 2 years and saving up a decent amount, I made a big leap of faith and moved to the land of the rising sun. I have studied one year of Japanese and two years of graphic design. Currently, I'm in the midst of shukatsu (ε°±ζ΄» - job hunting). Wish me luck!
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One Response to System overload

  1. Lynette says:

    It could actually also be a blessing in disguise πŸ˜‰ but yea, don’t let it get to you. Who knows if u can go somewhere much nicer in the future?

    πŸ™‚ does that mean I gotta wait for ur new schedule to go out?

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